My Journey · Part 04

Moving Forward

From miracles to healing, this chapter reveals how God reshaped my life after pain, loss, and spiritual drift.

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Up until this point in my life — and journey with Christ — I had witnessed and experienced the following:

  1. Dead, dull, dry, and boring church services.
  2. Lively, exciting, and adventurous church services (where sometimes we had a "normal" service, and other times we ended up praying and/or worshipping — without a sermon — for 2 to 3 hours)!
  3. Hypocrisy within the church.
  4. I'd searched for and found Christ, not religion.
  5. I'd spoken in tongues (Acts 2:4 and 1 Corinthians 14:2-6).
  6. I'd experienced God's Spirit numerous times — much more than just the tongues experience!
  7. I'd had my life changed for the better — from the inside out.
  8. I'd had several private and important prayers (about others) answered.
  9. I'd witnessed and experienced several real-life miracles — more on this later.
  10. I'd attended—and been kicked out of—Bible College.
  11. I'd been disowned by my parents.
  12. I'd been homeless and lived on the street.

A Glimpse of a Few Miracles

A. The Prayer for Food — One evening, in my apartment, I was hungry. I went to the cupboard and found a nearly empty box of Cream of Wheat and one can of green beans. I then went to my living room, got down on my knees and began to pray for food — because I had recently lost my job and was short on funds. While praying, there came a knock on the door. I opened it, and sitting there on my front porch were two bags of groceries — with no one standing nearby. Think about that! Within 15-20 seconds of beginning to pray, my prayer had been answered! This was miracle #4 for me.

B. The Stranger with $420 — One day, I was thinking about attending a conference in a faraway city. At the time, I didn't have much money—but I chose to go anyway. At the end of the first day, a man I had never met handed me a wad of twenty-dollar bills—$420 to be precise! When I asked him why, he said, "I feel led of the Lord to do it." Then he gave me a hug, turned, and walked away… and I never saw him again. This was miracle #5 for me.

C. The Appetite for the Word — Having been taught the importance of reading and studying God's Word, I struggled with doing it consistently. So, I prayed earnestly one night and asked the Lord to help me. The very next day, I was given a voracious appetite to read God's Word—so much so that I read the entire New Testament in seven days. Then I read it again in ten days. This was miracle #3 for me.

"Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything; tell God your needs, and don't forget to thank Him for His answers." - Philippians 4:6

D. The Vertical Shift — One day, I decided to go back to church and try this Christian thing all over again. Shortly thereafter, the pastor of that church pulled me into his office. He told me many personal things about my life and encouraged me to stop focusing so much on the horizontal (people and their flaws) and instead to focus on the vertical: my relationship with Christ. Thank you, Pastor Alexander!

The Pattern Becomes Clear

God was using different events in my life to help me re-focus my thoughts, actions, and energies on Him—rather than my past experiences and the flawed people around me. Later, I would be humbled by the Lord (numerous times) and learn to see my own flaws, quirks, idiosyncrasies, and sin!

While I am thankful for this period of time in my life (because I learned a lot about myself and other people), I am also thankful it's over! Now, the real journey begins. And trust me when I say this: I failed spectacularly… because I had a lot more lessons to learn — and I needed to be humbled!

If you have questions or comments, email me here.

In His Name,

Roy

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